Oscar Award winner and India’s best musician wanted to commit suicide

NP NEWS 24 ONLINE – Suicide ratio in India is increasing day by day and one of the reasons of all most all of them are failures and not only in India but all over the world young musicians have committed suicides in the last few decades which include 31 year old Linkin Park lead singer Chester Bennington and many other celebrities.

As India’s one of the top musicians, A R Rahman had suicidal thoughts in his early 20s too.

“Up until 25, I used to think about suicide. Most of us feel they are not good enough. Because I lost my father, there was this void. There were so many things happening,” said A R Rahman.

“But that in a way made me more fearless. Death is a permanent thing for everyone. Since everything created has an expiry date, so why be afraid of anything? Before that, things were dormant so may be it (the feeling) manifested then. Because of my father’s death and the way he was working, I didn’t do many movies. I got 35 movies and I did two. Everyone wondered ‘How are you going to survive? You have everything, grab it.’ I was 25 then. I couldn’t do that. It’s like eating everything. You become numb. So even if you eat small meals, make it fulfilling,” he added.

He dwelled on hard times in his life in Notes of a Dream: The Authorized Biography of AR Rahman. Written by Krishna Trilok, the biography was launched in Mumbai.

Rahman was nine when his father, R K Shekhar, who was a film composer, passed away and the family had to rent out his musical equipment to get by. ARR, thus, took to music at a very young age and now he is India’s one of the best music composer.